be careful what you ask of me.

i was just doing what you asked me to do.

when i let loose and allowed you to fall deeply into me

 

i was just doing what you asked me to do

when i pretended not to notice the day you made me into every gray part of you

 

i was just doing what you asked me to do

that night you wrote me into your existence and i didn’t seem fight it

 

i was just doing what you asked me to do.

when you asked me to be myself and i turned my back on you

 

i was just doing what you asked me to do 

when i kissed you like i did and felt nothing 

 

i was just doing what you asked me  to do 

when i said i loved you knowing full well i am incapable of that emotion

 

i was just doing what you asked me to do

when i became everything you’ve ever wanted in-bodied in everything you’ve ever feared

 

and i was just doing what i thought i owed you

the day i left you a note and never saw you again

 

i was just doing what i thought you deserved 

something brighter than anything i could ever be

 

i was just being myself

the day i left and felt numb in return.

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the sin of logic …

I am the sin,

I am the ultimate temptation and the desire,

I am the pain and the loss,

the death of hope,

I am the pleasure,

I am your plague.

I am the saint of your dreams and the devil of every nightmare you’ve ever had,

they say I am “the land where angels fear to tread”.

I am that feeling you get, right at the back of your head, hiding from the rest of your thoughts,

that impulse,

that strange little impulse,

that illogical voice telling you to go on,

to run into your darkness,

pushing you into irrecoverable irrationality,

I am, and forever will be, the death of all that is good in you.

I’ll strip you all the way to nothingness,

into oblivion,

until all that remains in you, is me.

I am the core of your salvation.

Your poison like nothing else,

still want to love me?

Because if there’s one thing i know for sure,

its that my feelings for you, defy logic.