There’s a fire inside of her.
She is beautiful,
Soft and hard, and soft again.
You taught her how to feel
She taught you how to love.
You’ll always be there with her,
Standing in the shadows to keep her safe,
Laughing with her in the light,
Watching through her eyes,
All those who dare to get close.
You’ll always be there and,
She will always be fine.
Im not blinded to realities,
I wholeheartedly agree.
Yet around me
She still couldn’t breathe.
To the point of suffocation.
We laughed at our untamed bodies.
I’ll always be her drug.
There’s no escaping that.
There’s no escaping me.
I tried you know,
To rid myself of her.
So did she.
It never got any easier;
We just got better at trying.
We felt the novelty of our beginning
Even at our very end.
I was addicted,
So I became the demon in our fairytale.
Her kisses were my whiskey
Her touch was my loaded gun.
I could rid myself of all my pieces,
And yet she remained the one thing
I could never budge.
There’s a first for everything.
And she went through the lists,
My last first.
I wanted to collapse into her
And rest a while.
Curl upon her lap
As she kissed my hair.
Just for the day,
I wanted us back.
Life has been playing tricks on me lately
Serving me too much of its realities.
I decided not to take it seriously.
So tonight, I let go.
I let her touch me again.
For a minute
We couldn’t breathe.
I never knew how good it felt
Not to breathe.
We couldn’t tame it,
That animalistic hunger.
I sat farther away teasing her.
A slow curl of smoke parted her lips,
She smiled at my audacity.
I craved her.
We were lying in tangled sheets,
Hazy with spent lusts,
Underneath my shirt
She traced my navel with her finger,
“You’ll love me forever.” She whispered.
“Forever and a day.” I softly admitted.
Through layers upon layers of clothes,
She set fire to my insides
Fucking my soul.
“I’ll consume you,” she whispered
Brushing her lips against my neck,
The open door behind her let in a breeze as she walked out
It washed through our senses waking us up,
Is that I’ll let you” I trembled in reply.
And my heart rate started going back to normal,
The muscles on my face didn’t stretch half as much
And the aftermath of her,
Began to lull me.
I felt dirty.
I felt soiled.
I felt numb.
I felt broken.
She’d left holes where she brushed,
Her tongue burned where it licked.
I could still smell her every which way I turned.
She was on my hair,
On my bed,
And on my pillows.
Stripping out of every fragment of fabric I had on
I couldn’t wait to get in the shower.
As if scrubbing off the remainders of her
Would somehow make me feel,
I had long ago caged myself,
In miles of carted hell,
To never again,
Now, she has you, and you have her.
All I have left are my words.
You can have her.
You can have it.
You can have me.
For I am only half of myself without her.
Kindly take her
And take my words with you
Take all you can carry.
Leave me with nothing,
I beg you.
I won’t fight you.
Just promise me,
You’ll keep her safe.
For I am the poet
And she is my poetry.
She is my anchor in the turbulent sea.
She is my air that gives me breath.
I can vow to anything till kingdom come,
But she wasn’t ever mine to begin with.
And then not to end with.
And you looked like everything she wanted.
And then she became something I hated.
We were a single thought in two minds
Our edges would make a sculpture weep in jealousy.
We are entwined for all life and death.
So you keep her safe,
Until the day I come next.