bowing out, to fate.

the look on your face 

when your skin touched hers;

you used to look at me like that.

 

i’ve forgotten how much you loved me.

it seems, 

i’ve forgotten how much i loved, being her.

 

hear me as i plead,

listen to my howls,

outside your door

i beg of you.

 

if love is what you feel

my sweet,

don’t let me in.

 

open that door

my angel,

and i will.

 

i will crawl in.

 

no longer have i the strength 

to bow out bravely.

 

you open that door 

my love,

i will claw my way through her.

 

i’ll be kicking 

fighting 

screaming 

to the very end.

 

tell her

 

i can fix anything.

 

give me a war and i’ll fix it. 

 

but, tell her 

 

i could never seem to fix 

the fact that i,

am so breathlessly 

in love

with you.

 

kindly let her know;

I am giving her the days.

 

the days with you

the days to come  

the days i can’t have.

 

take them, please.

 

I am giving you, 

my days.

 

just you remember;

i will always be your fix.

 

i will , forever be 

your perfect fit.

 

with no more days, left 

to give

let me flare

and fade 

forever

from home.